I’m listening to the new music I asked from my friend Ayee. I sit back to my chair, and saw the coming rain, the drops goes through the window. And as I close the window, I think of her again, you know who she is. My work table began to vibrate because of my phone. My lady asks me if I’m alright. I said yes. She thought we had an unresolved argument, but we’re alright now.

The girl I was thinking, my friend Ayee speaks about her again. I don’t know why every time I hear her name, I’m having this weird feeling that gives me an unusual smile in my face. I can’t explain why. Then I remember a night which I had a really big regret.

My confession’s getting really serious.

It was a project meeting. It was weekday so we had to meet at night. It was like we were five of us having fun like there was no tomorrow, although some of us are excited. Few hours before we head home she, (you may already know her), told me if I can take her to her house since it was kind of late. But because I had chores to be done at home, I declined. At that time I do not know what I did just say, or the reward maybe consequences that may have come with it. But she said, “Ok, well then, it’s alright.”

By the time I got home and woke up the next day, I had realized something very, very wrong. As I walk to the school corridors I said to my self softly, “S**t!” I could have done it. I could have said what be must said.

So close, yet so far.